Sweet Home Chicago.

Today is February 14th 2014. I had my 31st birthday last week. I am in a lot better situation then I was last time I wrote anything. I was staying in hotels and at my grandmas with Daniella off and on until October 2nd when I moved with her to Chicago. We stayed with her mom up Until January 1st. We have our own apartment and are both working. I started at Tony's finer food as a security guard. I got stiffed on ours from what I presume to be a racist supervisor because I am white. So I quit and got a job as a dish bitch at Fogo De Chao. I worked there a few months and had enough when I was working with this Black guy named Kevin who was an asshole. I now currently work at Applus as a Senior call center rep. Its really easy and boring. I have about 6 guitar snow. They are all really good.  I have been playing a ton and I have been writing a lot.

I went to a blues jam at B.L.U.E.S.  On Halsted. I had a chance to get up and play with some Legitimate old school bluesman. I failed. I didn't do it. I chickened out. You have no idea how angry I was at myself......



Chicago isn't bad. It has it good things and bad things like everything else. I live out in the suburbs. The downstairs neighbors are angry Polish people . Always beating the floor and walls and shit saying I make to much noise. Fuckem. I wanted to live in the city but shit happens. I only live about 8 minutes from the city limits though. It's not that I hate or dislike Chicago. I don't I would probably like it much better if I lived in the city, but I don't. Daniella has a really good job making good money and like most times in my life, I don't. Like I said I don't hate Chicago. I just miss living in Los Angeles. But with her job it would be stupid to move out there.

I have tried like to hell get some people together for a band here. I have tried three different genres of music even. I can't get shit going.

I miss my family back home. I really miss my dad. I haven't seen spoken or heard his voice since November 2009. I have been through so much since 2008. I know it all happened to prepare me or give me something to pull form or something. How do I use it if I can't even get on the stage and play the guitar in front of people. Much less sing.

I don't know. I sit at a desk 5 or 6 days a week on a computer so I will update this more with thoughts and what ever else.